Men and Women and Love and Stuff...Part 2

Part TWO:

Interesting Fact: One of my favorite pastimes in
the world is to be carried, caught, or thrown over
the shoulders of someone stronger than I.

   The minute I had asked for ended up feeling like a year of silence.
   Here are some of the things that came pouring from my mouth as if I had been waiting for someone to ask me this for years....
   I so desire a man who loves God more than me. Who will be strong for me when I am weak in faith. Whose first, not last, alternative is prayer and obedience in the face of trial. Who will pray for me, drop his worldly pride, lead by example, and love me the same way that Christ loves the church. A man who knows and is known by God.

   I so desire a practical man. Someone who can make decisions when I'm indecisive, change my flat tire, work a budget, help me with tech problems, google how to fix a leaky sink... Just normal, run-of-the-mill things. A practical man. A problem solver. This is for me, by far, one of the most attractive qualities I can think of in a man.

   I so desire a reliable man. Someone who is on time, can be trusted with responsibilities, will be where he says he'll be when he says he'll be there. A wise man whose words and actions line up.

   I so desire a man who pursues me. A man I don't have to chase, or beg, or put on a show for. A man who loves me through my baggage and my stubbornness and doesn't simply give up on me when things get difficult. A man whose love and affection won't fade with time. A man who believes I'm worth fighting for, and then acts accordingly. A man whose strength inspires me to be the woman I was meant to be. I want to help. I want to encourage. I want to support. I want to serve. I want to feel safe. I want to be someone's ezer kenegdo: a sustainer by my husband's side.


I want a best friend...

...I have a feeling this guy got a little more than he had bargained for...

I immediately felt exposed... Reality set back in when my friend said, "Cody, you haven't eaten anything..." 

"Oh, right! Well...anyways... those are just some dreams of mine. I understand I can't really expect to have those things in a man. Especially given my past and all the baggage I'd be carrying... I can't have that."


The gentleman looked up at me and simply said, "Cody... yes you can."


I picked up my fork, dug into the appetizer, and fought back tears. For the first time in my life, a man was reminding me that I was of worth in some way.... of great worth to my future husband, and more importantly of upmost worth to my God.


I'll never have a perfect man this side of Heaven, of this I am sure. But there is another part of me that has always been absolutely convinced that I don't deserve this type of man. A practical, wise man who will lead me spiritually, fight for me,  and find me of great worth...


Just the thought of my future husband inspires me to become all that I can be in Christ.


"As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another." 


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There is a reason that such boring qualities such as reliability and practicality mean the WORLD to me. 


I'll be posting here soon, and you'll get a real look at the real Cody. 


Oh, boy...